I, Me & Myself...discovered, lost, re-discovered and lost again!

In the middle of the night, its silence and serenity; i find myself! Thoughts and wonderings rush by me, stir the inside of me, tickles my gut and the quietness of the night is gone...all i am left with a sea of questions; unanswered and unpondered. Introspection, i think is all i need a little more; but on a second thought it seems its the overdose of introspecting which gets me into this wonderstruck mode of being! Questions, where do they come from; why don't they get answers with them! Damn you questions; you upset me, you make me feel lost again. I want to keep the feeling of being a special someone, a blessed soul, the chosen one; closely bound to myself, safe in a box with me...the darkness of nights blurs away some realities of life and the silence makes me feel as if life is in my control, i hold life's remote control and all the worries, anticipations and anxieties washes away. And slumber pampers me, the angels of the might whispers sweet sounds by my pillow, I am the king of my world. The very purpose of my being caress me and i discover thy self! Then comes a new day, sunshine wakes me into a new world of new realities, i still hold on to my superiority; prune myself and prepare for the new challenges of the new day...As i buckle up and hit the roads again, i am lost! Lost in the discovery of the realities of life; one among the thousands-rushing to work, one among the lakhs chasing the basics of life, one among the millions striving for a livelihood....thats me-re-discovering myself! Who am I? Is that the real Me? I ask this over and over again to Myself! and in the continuos struggle of discovering the truth..i feel lost over and over again!!!

Lost i was....

Life is totally different today from the day i last wrote a note! I now have a job, beautiful days of college are coming to an end, i am soon going to be at home n see my folks after sooo long...close to 3 months and so much has happened, so much changed! Well, they say "change is good" and "change is the spice of life" ...blah blah blah, how sometimes in life so dont want anything to change, ur only wish then is that the time stands still, good times never may end and nothing shall ever change! I guess i am caught up in that frame these days- i really dont want any of this to change: college, masti, aish, party, ghoomna n above all friends.....everything seems just so right, so perfect! **Pinch Pinch** and i wake up to the reality...i find myself again out of the world i was lost in; and Yes! Its only around 20 days for college to end, friends to part, one phase of life will fade!!! Ah, why do all good things come to an end :( :( **sad sad sad**

...Just wish to spend these few last days with my lovely darling friends, create some more memories worth cherishing for years to come and live a whole lifetime in whatever lil' time we have got, time of togetherness, time of care, time of love, time of laughters and time of cheers...and just another wish, wherever we all may go...for each one of us...good times may continue!!!