In the middle of the night, its silence and serenity; i find myself! Thoughts and wonderings rush by me, stir the inside of me, tickles my gut and the quietness of the night is gone...all i am left with a sea of questions; unanswered and unpondered. Introspection, i think is all i need a little more; but on a second thought it seems its the overdose of introspecting which gets me into this wonderstruck mode of being! Questions, where do they come from; why don't they get answers with them! Damn you questions; you upset me, you make me feel lost again. I want to keep the feeling of being a special someone, a blessed soul, the chosen one; closely bound to myself, safe in a box with me...the darkness of nights blurs away some realities of life and the silence makes me feel as if life is in my control, i hold life's remote control and all the worries, anticipations and anxieties washes away. And slumber pampers me, the angels of the might whispers sweet sounds by my pillow, I am the king of my world. The very purpose of my being caress me and i discover thy self! Then comes a new day, sunshine wakes me into a new world of new realities, i still hold on to my superiority; prune myself and prepare for the new challenges of the new day...As i buckle up and hit the roads again, i am lost! Lost in the discovery of the realities of life; one among the thousands-rushing to work, one among the lakhs chasing the basics of life, one among the millions striving for a livelihood....thats me-re-discovering myself! Who am I? Is that the real Me? I ask this over and over again to Myself! and in the continuos struggle of discovering the truth..i feel lost over and over again!!!
